So, since I'm not allowed to see Sage anymore, my parents withdrew me from the college we both attended. However, it was too late at that point to get apply for a transfer, so I had a choice, join the military, so I'd have money to start paying off my college loans, or be a full-time NON-degree seeking student at the local college. It was a hard decision, not that I want to go into the military, but my parents kept putting on the pressure. At random points of the day they'll ask me about the loans that I've taken out, said things like, "Oh, I can never remember which bank you went with" and "How much did you take out for your first year?" It always ends the same, me thinking about the near $80,000 debt that I'm in and the fact that I don't know if I'll even graduate.
So I thought about the Air Force, it seemed like an okay branch, I researched everything I could online. Read people's stories about boot camp, wondered if there was a way I could get in and never have to fight in combat, and took several practices ASVABs. My parents looked at me like they were proud of me again and I couldn't handle it. I talked to all of my close friends, hoping just one of them would blow the whistle and give me an alternative option, but all they did was encourage me. I stopped eating. I didn't shower. A week went by and my mother told me to go talk to a therapist and that she'd pay for it, as long as went to one she chose. I have a meeting with her tomorrow and I just found out that it's a Christian therapy center...
