My parents are trying to brush Sage under the rug, forget that the issue ever happened. So my mom will point out men on tv and comment on their attractiveness and I can feel her monitoring me, wondering if I'll agree with her. For her sake, I do. Or she'll talk about my sibling's future and wonder if they'll produce grandchildren for her. I walked into that trap once and asked her why she thought I wouldn't produce any grandchildren and she responded that I had told her I didn't want any children. She knows very well that I want children, I've talked about adopting ever since I was 12.
My dad is finally talking to me again and he seems back to normal, meaning he seems content to forget about the Sage drama. Even though they both seem fine, I am not fine. I don't have any friends at this new college because I don't feel like I'm a part of it. Up until this point in school, I've always had friends, people knew me, and I had good relationships with the teachers. Here, however, nobody cares. If you're not living on campus, it's hard to connect with people you only see a couple hours a week. I end up going to school, doing homework, and sleeping. I barely talk to my friends at my old college because it hurts too much. Right now I'm supposed to be doing the senior traditions, applying for jobs, and stressing out over schoolwork. Instead, I struggle to find a sliver of interest in any of my studies, it will probably take me an extra semester to graduate , and I've already decided that I will not be at the graduation ceremony.
Cheers to ..........
